rain is making things weird

i just woke up from the strangest dream. i had won some contest where i got to hang out with john mayer for a weekend. the problem with that was that i had to work or something so we didn't really hang out for the whole weekend. he hung out with my friends and crashed at my parents house and did a lot of sitting around waiting on me to have time for him. i kept going up to him and apologizing for not being able to spend any time and he was just like it's cool blahblah hiding from the spotlight. i guess it was like that "Win a Date with Tad Hamilton" movie that i like so much.

anyway....when i finally did get time to hang out with him, all we did was have dinner and talk about things and he said it was cool that i wasn't parading him around as if he was my boyfriend. um yeah, i'm sure if i wasn't too busy i would have been doing that. haha. it was just really cool. and then his manager showed up to take him off to whereever he had to go next and i went over to get a hug and he kissed me (not like making out, but a kiss on the lips nonetheless) and he said i was the most down to earth person he'd met in a long time and that next time he was in this part of the country he was definitely taking time to come visit. and then i made some joke about christmas and he said maybe so. we exchanged cell numbers and he was off and i was like "what the hell just happened here?"

it was a bizarro dream b/c i haven't even been listening to JM music since i saw him in august. i am taking a JM break! and i guess my subconscience is ready for that break to be over with?

i guess i should say that i'm not mad at anyone anymore. i watched Fahrenheit (by myself) after work the other night. i liked it, although not as much as i liked bowling for columbine. he's acting couple-ey lately...text messaging me in the afternoon to see what *we* are doing this weekend or what *we* are having for dinner. uhhh.....we? i thought i was the only one using that term and that's b/c i had the misconception we are a couple. maybe it's sinking in with him now too? i spent the night over there friday after work and we watched some football and baseball yesterday afternoon before splitting like at 5p. carrie and chayne called to see if we wanted to hang out, but i was sleepy and he said he was going to take a nap when i left his house so we didn't end up doing anything last night. i think i fell asleep at like 9p! and he never called me back so i'm guessing he went to sleep after the yankees won their game.

i have no idea what we're doing today, if anything. the cowboys are playing now (gag) so i'm guessing i won't hear from him until this game is over. he keeps talking about taking a weekend and going to the casinos in tunica. how we need to get out of town for a while. ok...weekend trips = serious relationship to me. what about you? he works monday - friday 1p-11p starting monday, so as long as i'm still working the hours i am, we could take a weekend trip. i do have a job interview tuesday though, so maybe by the 1st of november i'll have a new job all together? the daytime hours are definitely going to mess up our schedule, but if it's more money, hell i'm willing to make sacrifices.

no fair this weekend b/c of the consistant rain. i think we're going next sunday. and saturday we have tickets to the Pistons/Heat game (wooo! detroit what!?) so i'm pretty psyched.

and i'm starving so i'm going to go warm up some leftover chinese.

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