blah! depressed!

he's been gone 15 hours and i already miss him. is that sad? or like overly sappy or what? i did a good job of keeping myself busy all day so i didn't think much about it after i dropped him at the airport, but when i got off of work and my car was in the parking lot, freezing cold, and he wasn't there....it hit me that i have to go 10 days like this!

he did call me though.....unfortunately i was at work where my phone doesn't always ring. he left me a message saying that it was snowing in corpus. i'm sure it won't be as bad as it was here, but those people see less snow than we do in arkansas, so i'm sure they were freaking out.

he was mad that it snowed here because my christmas present apparently was being shipped to the gym and the gym was closed thursday so he doesn't know if it's here. and he won't tell me what it is.

i slept at his house last night....we didn't even get there until like 4am and he set the alarm to get up at 8, so i guess we didn't sleep that long, but it was like the best 4 hours i've had in a long time. our days off don't coincide anymore, so we never sleep together it seems. i dunno...something about it being winter and freezing cold and being cuddled up in bed together just makes me feel the warm fuzzies. and i guess that will have to hold me over until at least january 3.

i'm spending christmas alone. when i decided to do that earlier this week, it didn't sound that bad. i was actually pretty happy about it b/c i get to watch basketball and eat whatever and drink some stuff....but now that it's actually here.....it sucks. and it's not like i can invite people over since my parking lot is a death trap. i don't even know who i'd invite over if i could. i'm probably just going to curl up and watch some more of my OC dvds and then catch the kobe/shaq game and then go to work. seeeee....work will be the highlight of my christmas day.

and as a closing christmas present to you....some John Mayer lyrics....accurately reflecting my current mood of.....blah....sappy, lonely, missing you terribly.....did i mention sappy?

from St. Patrick's day

here/comes a cold/break out the winter clothes/and find a love to call your own
you/enter you/your cheeks a shade of pink/and the rest of you/a powder blue
who knows/what will be/but i'll make you this guarentee/see

know in november we'll say our goodbye
when it comes to december, it's obvious why
no one wants to be alone at christmas time.
come january we're frozen inside
making new resolutions a hundred times
february won't you be my valentine

and we'll both be safe til st. patrick's day.........

merry christmas everyone.

<3