crappy


my blogmonster is being sent to Iraq. thank you george w. as if i needed another reason to hate you. this is the only person i speak to whom i can have real grown up conversations with. and now i'm freakin worried that he's going to die or get hurt or come down with some mysterious chemical weapon disease. thank you again.

i hope he realizes that i'm his friend and i'll do whatever i can do help him out. send packages and newspapers or write letters or bake cookies. whatever! he can even write posts for his blog if he has time and mail them to me and i'd post them on his site for him. blah! i feel so helpless. and if something happens, i won't ever find out about it because i'm just a friend. and i don't know the family. i guess it would be on the news though. that bothers me too.

and my friend's dad died thursday. yet another reason i feel helpless. i never know what to say to people who have lost a loved one. so i usually don't say anything. which makes them think i don't care. i do care! i just rather not say anything than sound really stupid by saying something completely wrong.

just flat out crappy.

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