tv love

i'm the biggest sap. i'll let you know that right up front.

i love watching tv shows that i guess you would call dramas (but sometimes they are comedies!). my fav sap shows right now are Dawsons Creek (yes i'm still trapped in my teenage years), Ed and American Dreams. if you're a male, you probably think i'm the biggest loser on the planet. if you're female, you might sympathize with me with this.

i like DC because i somehow manage to connect myself with these lives that were nothing like mine. nothing is ever completely right (which i guess if it was, there'd be no plot) and when it seems like everything is perfect, something tragic happens. somehow these people are always in some sort of relationship with everyone else on the show, and i never had that. i didn't have the 20 boyfriends in high school or the thousand boyfriends in college. and i guess since i didn't have it, it's nice to see in tv land that these things do happen to people. i'm vicariously living through these people!

maybe i really do need professional help.

all of these shows are soap operas. i hate soap operas. but i guess since these are shows on during primetime i distinguish them differently?

i like ed for the same reasons i like DC. the characters are older and all, but there's always this one guy and this one girl who know they should be together forever, but something always gets in the way (timing, engagements, other relationships, etc.). it's just cute and there's no other shows with a bowling alley lawyer, so i'm hooked.

i love american dreams because it's set in the 60's and lately i've had this weird fascination with old stuff. i love the music and the whole american bandstand theme. and of course i love the sappy relationships that keep popping up.

i'm a huge romantic. maybe since i have no way of letting out the feelings i have, watching these programs is a release. i usually end up crying at the end of the show. not because it's over but because something really good happened (and i'm jealous in a way) or something really bad happened (and i feel that person's pain.). when it's over though, a part of me just wants to sit back and look to whoever is my *crush of the day* and ask "why the hell isn't that happening in my life?" and his response would probably be "because it's tv, laurie. and stuff that happens on tv or in movies never happens in real life." and my thoughts (that i would probably keep to myself because the last thing i ever want is for people to worry about me) would be along the lines of "yeah right, it's because you are totally not hot like Katie Holmes or even that ugly Michelle Williams." and i'd shrug my shoulders and move along with my day. i've gotten this far in my non-existant relationship-filled life, why stop now?

see i really am crazy. i just don't have the money to have it clinically diagnosed yet.

listening to: air conditioner, tv in bedroom that's on news i think
shoes of choice: none

and now....no more messages. i'm tired of typing that.