wrasslin and revalations


so i decided to go to wrasslin' after all last night. it was actually kind of fun. one match that will be aired friday on UPN was obviously fake, but most of the matches looked real. key word - looked. they did the friday night smackdown program first, and then they went on Spike tv live with monday night raw. mike used to make me watch raw, and then the guys i liked from there (randy yummy orton and batista) got drafted to smackdown, so i haven't really watched raw lately. i almost left before the show came on, but the guy that was sitting next to me made me stay hah.

jason from work and his girlfriend had the tickets beside me and they were extremely late, so i ended up making friends with the guy next to me. he was alright...mostly impressed with my yelling at wrestlers and knowing who people are. he gave me his number...i doubt i'll call. his hands were rough! and yeah i guess he could work in construction or something....but it was a total turn off for me. and i'm not talking callous rough like he spends time lifting weights (mike.), it was like drag your hands on the concrete outside rough. beggers can't be choosers, but i reserve the right to keep some of my standards.

i'm saving the best part of the whole night for last, like i always do. like right when smackdown started, i went up to the concourse to go pee and i ran into mike and some girl. and i was just like...shocked i guess. i knew he was going, but i just assumed he'd be going with one of his boys. i didn't say anything, just kinda gave him the wave and head nod thing when he said hey! knowing he was there with a girl just kinda lingered in my head for the entire show....but it's alright now! why?

after the show i called carrie and nathan to i guess to express my shock. they both gave the same advice 'think about how much better you're off now. she's carrying your old burdens. he totally was using you. life is good now!' and they're right. i know this. i just never run into exboyfriends. they always move or i move or we were so different to start out with, we never run into each other anywhere. since mike and i have so many of the same things in common, same places to hang out, it was inevitable.

oh yeah, i was telling the story...so while i was talking to nathan i get a text message from mike. and i really don't want to text him back b/c i have nothing to say. so i don't. so he calls to see what's up. and we talked for a bit and then he asks if i want to come over and kick it. bill and tis were coming over and i haven't seen them in forever either, so why not? yeah, i can already see you guys rolling your eyes! nothing happened. that girl he was with, he complained about. that made me feel good haha. bill and tis were shocked to see me i guess. they were cracking me up...asking where the hell i've been...why i'm never around anymore. gee, i wonder? we planned to go out sometime like the old days, but i'm not holding my breath.

i wish i could explain why i went over there so you guys won't think i'm crazy or stupid or just some silly girl that's holding onto what she once had. to me, it was more a closure thing i guess. i'm still not going to call him and ask him to go do things. when i left, he was pretty adamant about how we needed to go out once i get weekends off, but i'm leaving that up to him. i'll go if he offers, but i don't see him having time to do anything anytime soon. i want to be friends! especially if we run in the same circles. and i think that's working out easier for him than it is me.

i'll be fine as soon as i find someone else to crush on. send pictures to starchica0@comcast.net. haha

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