i always title these things last...

i feel bad that i only come here once a week and crank something out. i mean to do this more often, but it always seems like i have nothing interesting to say. i guess i could do it for my own catharsis (thanks mrs. rogers 12th grade ap-english for introducing me to my favorite word), but sometimes i just rather lay in bed and speak hypotheticals to myself instead of putting them down.

i spent mothers day with my mom. love her to death. i remember when i was younger and she got on my nerves so bad - we fought about everything and she was always so critical. now that i don't live with my parents, and i only see my mom like every other week, we have a way better relationship. i still don't open up to her and tell her all the details of my life, but we don't argue anymore. she doesn't ask too many questions about what i do, so i don't take the time to let her know. less is more, you know?

i thought about my other mom that passed away in january on mother's day too. i miss having her around to tell all the explicit details of my life to. beth made up for all the things i never told my real mom. she was such a great friend to me and lindsey.

sorry about all the sappy sad stuff. moving along...

i had a job interview at nuvell last week. i think it went alright. i'm nervous that i left off information on my application from the past 7 years that could disqualify me from getting the position. it's a customer service support person that works from 11am - 8pm. are those not some awesome hours? plus it pays $12/hr which is a wee bit more than i make now. not to mention it's practically right down the street from where i live, so minimal gas usage and no traffic problems. i think i've gotten myself too excited about it and therefore, won't get the job. let's hope not. i also got a call from my staffing agency that said they were going to send my resume to a car dealership in nlr for a payroll assistant. it also paid 12/hr and with it i could probably keep working pt at clear channel in the news department or something. i'm working extra hard on this job finding mission, so keep me in your prayers please. i'm getting tired of working 6 days a week and 12 hour shifts to make enough money to pay bills.

i'm getting back into my exercise routine this week. ok, so i have 1 day down so far, but i'm dressed and ready to go after i finish this. mike and i talked for like 30 minutes yesterday about establishing me a new diet plan and routine. i'm getting so frustrated with my weight not budging (- 3 lbs for like 2 months), i asked him for help yesterday. we're probably going to go to the grocery store and he's going to pick out what i should eat. and i'm going to have to start making myself eat every 3 to 3.5 hours. that's going to be harder than doing the exercising. he's been doing this plan for like 2 weeks and he's lost 3% body fat. i wanna be like mike!

our relationship is alright. steady goes the course or something. i was pretty much set on making plans with other people to go to riverfest this year, but he asked me last week if i was off that weekend and if he should find me a button to get in. he said that the bands he wanted to see were more of a he and i thing than a he and tis and bill thing. which is true. i just don't want to go and be treated like i was in memphis. especially when i know that at this event we will run into way more people we know than we did a couple of weeks ago. last year i went with Carrie and Steve and he showed up but there were so many people when he got there, it took us forever to meet up with him and then he was in a bad mood for whatever reason. it was totally not fun and i was glad i was with other people so we let him go home. we'll see though...that's still 3 weekends away.

he's made a connection with a GM at gwatney on university to possibly get a truck this week. the guy seemed really willing to help him meet whatever payment that mike was willing to pay, so that's pretty awesome. mike said that if this works out, then we'll probably go over there in my car and see if he can help me find something with a lower payment. they sell pontiacs, gmc's, and chevy's there so i dunno what i'd take. maybe a used altima? haha. i'm just not big on american cars (sorry).

i'm off from work tomorrow and mom and i are going shopping for new clothes! woo! it's about time! i made a pity case for how i can't look nice on a job interview b/c all of my clothes are 3 sizes too big and i guess she sympathized. i'm really excited because this will be the first time i've really gotten to see what size i am now. maybe more motivation to get back on course?

i need to go run before it gets too hot outside. hope you have a great week!

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