i'm back home, which means back to reality. reality is not nearly as much fun!

on the inside, i feel like i'm being ripped apart and i want to scream so badly about how it hurts. i can't let it show though.

i'll never understand why i'm like that. it's like i rather battle myself alone rather than let other people in to fight the demons. no one likes a debbie downer! and i'm not that person.

it just hurts.

i'll say more when i figure out how to word it.