week from hell
 
i griped the other day about mike getting put on overnights.  well tuesday afternoon he got fired.  someone of importance heard him make a comment about 9-11 and blowing the building up (a long running joke in MC) and that was that.  he was here at my place when he got the call from our boss.  we were about to start working on a resume for him so he could apply for a job in another department.  we still haven't done that resume, but now we have to so he can get a job period.  that sucks.
 
so i have been sick pretty much all week with a sinus infection.  i took off wednesday and thursday because i felt so bad.  unfortuntately, my timing was awful so a lot of people thought i quit b/c of the whole firing thing.  i am being punished though.  i got a call thursday afternoon from nathan saying that i was going to have a different job starting friday, as tape librarian.  i thought it sounded boring but i felt like i should be thankful i still had a job, so i tried to go to work friday with a positive attitude.   when i got there i talked to one of the important bosses that i still like and he made the tape librarian job sound a bit more interesting.  well after i spoke with him i talked to nathan & dewayne who would be my supervisors and dewayne made it sound like crap again.  and he wrapped up our conversation with "well, we're considering a few people for this position so you don't necessarily have it just yet."  what?  how does that make sense?  i was told thursday i had a new job.  i was told friday morning i had a new job, but all of a sudden, i'm just one of many people being considered for the position?  fuck that shit. 
 
so i spent friday running playlists in master control b/c i obviously was out of any job at that point and i was just trying to look busy enough so someone would at least pay me for the day.  i was so mad.  i still am pretty mad actually.  what am i supposed to do?  i get the impression i'm not wanted in MC b/c of my ties to mike, but i only get that impression from one person - the boss who does the hiring and firing and makes the decisions whenever he feels like it.  and then i get pretty much the same vibe from dewayne - here's a job that we're making, but i'm not sure i want to put you in it. 
 
i'm supposed to weigh my options over the weekend and report back monday what i've decided to do.  and i pretty much had my mind made up friday morning what i was going to do, but i thought i should hold onto it until monday so it makes it look like i spent a lot of time thinking it over.  i'm going to ask/beg/plead to stay in MC as an operator.  i don't care what shift i'm on or what days i work.  i just want a job.  and that way i can sift through the paper and online and see what else is out there.  i know i don't want to be a tape librarian and dewayne and i would definitely clash on many attitude issues.  that would be worse than whatever trouble i'm in right now with MC. 
 
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mike is gone to corpus christi for a week or so.  i dropped him off at the airport yesterday afternoon.  and he called me when he got there.  and he called me earlier this afternoon.  um, correct me if i'm wrong, but usually when you go on vacation, you don't just call up your *friends* to say hey....you might call your girlfriend or your best friend...but someone of the status that i thought i was with him wouldn't get a phone call, much less two?  so that makes me feel pretty good.  i've got the key to his apartment and i'm supposed to make sure it's still standing every other day.  when he called today he was saying that he might stay an extra week since there's no big hurry to come back to lr since he's jobless.  i just said he'd probably miss us before then and want to come back sooner and he just kinda laughed and said i was probably right.  hehe. 
 
i thought this whole seperation thing would be really good for me and him both.  kinda figure out what the hell is going on and where we stand and that sort of thing.  the two days i didn't go to work b/c i was sick, i spent at his house just hanging out.  or he was driving me all over town.  i was so out of it, i'm sure i was no fun.  he took good care of me though.  i was surprised.  when i was at his house, he made me get in bed and covered me up and brought me water and cough drops and stuff.  i'm not used to being babied like that!  it was awesome!  but damn, we spent a good 12 hrs together like everyday this week and now he's gone and i'm having major withdrawals. 
 
he may have a job offer in dallas.  and BT said he and his wife would move to dallas if mike goes.  and they asked me to go with them.  should i go?  dallas isn't all that far away.  but the way that BT and mike or BT and i get in fights once a month is kind of discouraging.  and are mike and i at a place where we could move together and only have each other as friends for a while?   these are questions i have to have answered before any packing begins.  i much rather have everyone stay here at least for another 6 months and theeeeen maybe we can see about moving, if we are all still getting along.
 
we'll see.  this week should be interesting just b/c of the whole job thing.  he's afraid i'm going to get fired too, but i'm not exactly sure what for.  guilt by association?  my goal is to keep my mouth shut and lay low.  i hope this week goes by fast.  i'm ready for my vacation!
 
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