bad blogger! bad!

not blogger the program, but me, myself and i, as a blogger, am not holding up my end of the bargin by posting something at least once a week.

i've been depressed this week. not exactly sure why, just don't feel happy. i'm blaming the abundance of food i'm eating. i feel incredibly fat, although the scale hasn't changed. none of my new clothes look right on me! and that's just frustrating. mike says i need to relax and give the diet at least a month before i start modifying it. maybe my metabolism was so slow that it needs coaxing to get going instead of a shock treatment. i didn't even work out yesterday because i didn't want to get out of bed. i'm dressed and ready to go today though. just giving my breakfast time to digest a bit so i don't throw it up. we're increasing my cardio time to 45 minutes to see if that helps anything. that just sounds like a really long time to me.

what was once thought of as a perfect plan, riverfest is now up in the air. mike has to go to Hardy with the stupid rock wall thing and he won't be back until saturday night. i'm pissed. he's pissed. we're just one big happy family. now i've got to call steve and see if i can tag along with him on saturday night b/c i reallllllly want to see the crowes. mike said he might get home before they go on, but i should probably make other plans. my weatherbug is saying there's a 40% chance of rain, so actually i'm kind of hoping it will rain out. how evil is that? hehe. i think he and i are going on sunday to catch fireworks, so it's not a total bust. just frustrating that every time i get a weekend off, the stupid guy at the gym makes mike work.

job hunt is stalled. i signed up with OfficeTeam monday, and the guy was really cool and very helpful. i'm hoping he can find me something really soon. i can get microsoft certified in all of the office applications for free by being part of their "team", so i'm probably going back up there next week to pass those tests.

i've got some things to do today, so i'm leaving you with just this. i hope you have a better weekend than the way mine is looking to turn out...

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