big big week

i should go to sleep, but i have been so lazy lately that i've been sleeping until after 10am, so i'm not as tired as usual. i haven't worked out in over a week and my conscience is about to get the best of me. i feel guilty! but my ankle is still pretty swollen, even though i'm walking around on it and it doesn't really hurt unless you grab it. i guess i should be scheduling a doctors appointment, huh?

i'll start back to my workouts this week. i haven't even been eating right b/c i haven't bought groceries in 2 weeks and well, what's the point of eating right when you're not working out? the food has tasted so good lately! i'll get back on it. soon.

this week is very important for me. i have the big video interview on wednesday morning. i'm so nervous already and it's just monday morning. i'm confident that i know my stuff, i'm just afraid of what they will think of me. i want this job so badly, but i don't want to come across as desperate. the HR lady insists that they are cool and they'll make you feel comfortable...but seriously...how comfortable can you be looking at people on a tv screen who you know are analyzing your every move?

this interview basically determines what i'm doing with the next few years of my life. if it goes well, then great. i'm off to atlanta! if i don't get it, then...i dunno. i'm probably finished with the television industry b/c i can't afford to stay. and if i do stay, i'll be working 2 jobs and that sucked 2 years ago, i don't want to do it again.

also mike should be back in town today. i hadn't really thought much of him last week, but realizing that he's back has been an added stress. he didn't call me at all while he was gone, which is kind of strange b/c he's called me every time he's gone to corpus since i first met him. i guess i'm having withdrawals. i miss hearing his voice. hell, i miss the phone ringing everyday at 3. it's just....silent....and that makes me feel alone. not that i want you or anyone else to start calling me at 3 everyday, i need to think about the minutes i'm saving on my phone. haha. i knew this was going to be hard. i'm glad i'm getting over it now, while i'm still living here, as opposed to after i move, when there will be even less friends around to occupy my time.

i got harry potter saturday. i started reading it at work earlier. i'm like 3 chapters in...and it's already seeming pretty bleak to me. it's hard to stop reading once you start, which i guess is great. i'm awful about finishing books, but i've never had a problem with harry potters. if you're reading it, don't spoil anything for me! i'll get down to seriously reading it after i get past this interview.

i doubt i'm going to get to go to six flags in a couple of weeks like i wanted to. brad went back to florida until school starts since he had a job there and he doesn't have one here. he was my option #2 to go since obviously i won't be going with mike. so now i'm off a weds-sunday with no plans! i'll make plans though...and if i get the job, then my time will be filled with packing and cleaning up and preparing to move!

please send me your good vibes this week! i could use all i can get. i'll let you know weds how everything goes...

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