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well...it's a lovely memorial day! nothing like endless clouds and drizzling rain to get me in that summer season spirit! at least it's not 100 degrees. and actually, i enjoy a bit of clouds and rain every once in a while.

i did manage to go to riverfest on both saturday and sunday, by myself! saturday i was supposed to meet up with steve, but i never found him. mike was going, but he ended up having to go to northern arkansas with the guys from the gym to work. i was just a little bit angry, but the world doesn't revolve around me and throwing a temper tantrum (like i did when the gym wanted him to work on memphis in may weekend) wasn't going to get me anywhere. so i went by myself and had a pretty good time. seether was pretty good. the black crowes didn't play the 2 songs i came to hear, but it was still pretty trippy. i was right up front in the middle which was great. sunday, i had some riverfest money left so i had to go down there to spend it. i called mike and he said he was at the gym and he'd call me back so i got dressed and waited around for a couple of hours and he didn't call back so i just went downtown without him. he didn't have a button and he said he didn't want to see Trapt all that much, so i just *assumed* that he wasn't going to be interested in going down there for like an hour. i got there a little after 5 and got some food and sat down at the ampitheater to wait for the band to start, and he calls and asks where i'm at. and then he gets mad that i didn't wait on him. apparently, he was WORKING at the gym, which means he doesn't get off until 5, and because i left without him, he wasn't going to go at all. and he made it sound like it was all my fault he wasn't going! how was i supposed to know i should have waited like another 30 minutes? so i was kind of upset again. i decided before i went down there, that i was leaving after Trapt because i didn't want to get stuck in the mass of people leaving after the fireworks. so i call and ask if he'd like to go back downtown for fireworks later, and he says no, i should stay b/c i'm already down there. so when i try to explain that i'm not leaving for his sake, but for my own, he'll have no part of it and he says he rather stay home and do laundry and go to the grocery store. so whatever! i came home...watched part of the pistons/heat game, and went back downtown for fireworks (viewed from the comforts of my own car in a law firm's parking lot). i stopped at the grocery store on my way back and all is good. i don't have to put up with this crap! i know it's all miscommunication, but lord. don't blame me because you never say what exactly is going on.

haven't talked to him yet today. he usually calls within the next hour and i'm thinking that i have no reason to cater to him this week. especially when he has no interest in catering to me in return! rar! i'm just kinda frustrated with the whole thing. and it seems like riverfest hurts more of my relationships than helps. i'll have to think about that more and be more careful when i try to take people downtown for memorial day. hah.

on a lighter note, i recieved an awesome phone call last week from Turner Broadcasting in Atlanta. they are interested in me being a master control operator! how awesome is that? just when i'm looking to get out of the business and be happy being a lame ass secretary, i get a call from a major network! i have only talked to the lady a couple of times for a couple of minutes, but she's supposed to call me tomorrow morning to discuss things further. i'd be happy going down there to check out the facility...getting the job is just a bonus.

does anyone who reads this know much about atlanta? cost of living, where's a good place to live, etc. i've only been to the airport there a 100 times...never had the chance to venture out.

did i mention that turner owns cartoon network, tnt, and tbs? i could manage to watch all 3 of those all day or night or whatever. and it's automated! i'll know more tomorrow...

that's part of the reason i went to riverfest alone. if i move to atlanta, i'm sure to go by myself and who knows how long it takes to make some friends. hehe. and obviously my boyfriend is a piece of crap, so no worries about leaving him here.

i need to get started on my cooking for the day. hope you had a good holiday. maybe you got to do some grillin' outside! i'm sticking with the george foreman...

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