i think as time passes, things just don't affect you as harshly as they did originally. last time i said it didn't hurt so bad, and now it's just like a throbbing.

i was confronted about what i said here. and he offered to stop being my friend and calling me everyday in order to fix things. that's not the solution though! i need him around as a friend. he's one of the most honest, sincere people i know. i think it would hurt 12940978234 times worse if he just disappeared from my life.

i don't want things to change. i want to keep hanging out, going to concerts and football and basketball games. doing things we both love. eventually, we'll find our solemates and probably grow apart, but right now, i think we should enjoy the time we have!

i know i'm going to be fine. i'm fine now actually. i'll be great again sometime soon. i just want to focus on fixing me before rushing out and trying to disrupt someone else's life. and i have a lot of work to do.