writing for the sake of writing


well i know people are reading my blog...including those people i write about. interesting. hi everyone.....donnie, nikki, laura, billy, and on and on and on.

just remember that this is intended for me to release some steam so if i say something that hurts your feelings, don't get mad that i didn't say it to your face. maybe i haven't gotten that far yet. or maybe i'm just chicken. ;)

i got asked on a DATE today. after some mediation. and stubbornness on my part to not go unless i was asked straight up. so yay. sorta excited about it. must look super gorgeous. it's on saturday. lord, pleaseeeee don't let me freak out. i deserve this! it's my birthday almost!

nikki got a puppy and it is SOOOOOOOOooooo cute. i'm so jealous. snow and puppies all in the same weekend. why is she living the life i want? hehe

i'm still trying to feel eric out (not up). i was asked today if i liked him, or if i was just trying to get some action out of him. i don't know really. i mean i can say that i don't like him, but we're friends and have been friends for like 6 years now. and you know he's not going to stop being a whore for me. i dunno if i want to get involved with someone that's not going to devote their time and actions to me and only me. i guess he kinda takes me back to the old days where i had nothing going on and not many worries. i don't knoooow. i want affection and attention! who's offering?

there's someone else i've been talking to, but i don't really *like* he's cool though. nice to talk to. the problem i have with him is that when no one is around we're cool, but when certain people enter the space, it's as if i (and others) don't exist. that's pretty shady, don't you think? i'm not the only person who's picked up on this. so at least i don't feel like i'm alone in being screwed?

shit is going to hit the fan at work in the morning. i'm totally not looking forward to it. i didn't go friday and everyone else is apparently sick, so the boss who's been out of the office for a month, is pissed that people came to work sick, which got everyone else sick, which means no work is being done. and apparently he went in today and found the office a mess, so i'm sure i'll hear it over that too. blah...if it gets intense, i'm quitting. i can find another daytime office job. maybe even something PT so i can sleep more often. i'm tired of getting up and going to work every day...which is why i haven't done it for an entire week in like two months. i can't! by weds, i'm dying and i'm super grouchy and it's so hard to get out of bed, much less find some clothes that match.

so anyway....i'm happy....and i'm mad....and i'm disgruntled....all at the same time. what a fun life you must lead! exactly!

2 weeks to birthday...4 weeks to vegas...5 weeks to memphis. bring it OOONNNNNNN!

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