strange habits of mine

i was thinking about my weird habits. like i don't eat red meat much anymore. which isn't a bad thing! i like a hamburger every now and then, but i dunno. it's nothing i like to cook and i usually find something else to order if i go out! i love chicken! i eat it everyday! if not chicken, then turkey. yum poultry. steak has a weird texture. chewy. stringy. there's just something about it i don't like.

and when i eat...i don't mix my food together. i eat different things separately. is that strange? and if i have french fries or tater tots, i always eat those first b/c they don't taste good when they're cold. i think it has a lot to do with mixing flavors or something. and i know it all mixes in your stomach, but i don't see the food mixed there! which is why i would never eat that omelette that's in the picture down there. too many flavors mixed together. mexican food should never be mixed with breakfast. omelettes are made for ham and cheese and that's it.

i have my clothes organized in my closet. and i used to have my cds alphabetized. but i moved and they're all mixed up and i haven't felt like fixing it. i can't stand clutter on the floors. i vacuum at least once a week. i think all of this is attributed to a minor case of OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder).

i've been by myself all day today, so i have a lot to say tonight.

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food for thought

would you eat this?



imagine a strong aroma of onions and bell peppers...

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do they have tornados in the matrix?

i went to see the matrix, like 50 kabillion other people in the world did today. it was pretty awesome. i liked the visual stuff a whole lot...a bit too much dialogue towards the end though. i'm sure once i see it again, i won't gripe about the dialogue b/c it'll make sense or something. as of right now though, i'm really confused about the whole point of the movie.

the most excitement happened before the movie though! my friend and i went to get something to eat and while we are there, the tornado sirens start going off. and they went off for like the next hour and a half! it was pretty scary for a while (at least in my opinion...), the sky got really black and the clouds were moving in weird ways. they had a couple of touch downs i think, but my neighborhood looks untouched and thankfully the movie theater wasn't hit either. my friend took a bunch of pictures since i had my camera with me. they look pretty cool too. you can definitely tell that something bad is going on.

anyway...i guess the summary of now is that the matrix is good and tornados are bad.

oh and my boss is the greatest boss in the whole wide world. most generous and caring and considerate and well i don't want to get a new job at all. thank you!!

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ode to dawson's creek

oh dawson's creek...how you make me so sad at times.
how you make me cry, how you make me laugh, how you make me angry b/c joey obviously picked the wrong guy.

so sad because what will i watch on wednesday night now?
so sad because the fictional lives of those 4 (or 5, or 6, or 10 however many) characters somehow meshed together to form my dysfunctional life.
so sad because out of all the dysfunction, there was always hope.

hope that she'll get the guy.
hope that grams will live forever.
hope that even for the gay boy, there's plenty to go around.
hope that even I, Laurie, could achieve such happiness...
if i could only make it past the rough spots.

oh dawson's creek...you made my rough spots seem tiny.
that hour of television was the perfect escape from everyday life.
i could finally forget my awful job and my empty existance and my hopeless romantic endeavours.

now i've lost you, dawson's creek.
i can't figure out if i'm sad because i have to find a new escape route, or if because i'm now left to my own devices for daydreaming a better life for myself.

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or maybe it's a whole lot of other unrelated things that just haven't found their outlet until now. DC was a stimulus for my weekly emotional outpouring. i could cry and be miserable about everything that sucks right now and use the excuse of this fictional tv show to cover it up.

who knows.

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yippeeeee

ok so i got the cable internet now...and the digital cable television. i don't feel like blogging b/c i'm having too much fun with my new technologies!

let's do some quickie updates:

not so mad about my cousin...i'm sure it will heat up when i see her again.

lady with cancer has been at work both days this week. she's got a wig b/c apparently her hair is already falling out. so sad.

my only connection to the military is coming home tomorrow night! yay!

new apartment is still great. a pretty windy storm just blew through here like an hour ago and i didn't hear much of anything since i'm in the middle. very nice.

the computer tech people came to my office today from down the hall to see what was needed to hook us up to the internet. i think we're doing a serious walk-through tomorrow morning and then they'll get to work.

i guess that's everything.

i had a weird question to ask in mind earlier, but now i can't think of what it was. i guess i'm getting old. ;)

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i was so mad

did you ever read that book as a kid? i think it has maybe 50 words total in it, but it was one of my favorites.

anyway...

i am mad right now. so i was leaving my grandmas and one of my cousins (like the only cousin i'm remotely close to) bitched me out. like made me stop while i was in my car going down the street, just so she could bitch me out.

so here's the story. i was at her house and she was telling me about how she got suspended from ebay. she's a freakin ebay addict, so it probably does the world a favor. well i think this is hilarious b/c who on earth would get suspended from ebay? so like our family is sitting outside (Family meaning like 15 people) and there's a lull in the conversation and so i repeat the story and think nothing of it. it's a funny story!

well apparently my aunt, her mother, catches her inside and tells her she needs to watch what she says around certain members of the family b/c they are prone to repeat them. if i knew this was going to be such a big freakin deal, i wouldn't have said anything. everyone there knew about her ebay addiction and they all thought it was as funny as i thought it was! so yeah that's what she bitched me out for.

what was i supposed to say in return? i apologized and she said "yeah i know you're sorry" and walked off. should i be calling everyone that was present and apologizing to them? she said i made her sound like an idiot and there was a new person there and he probably thinks she's stupid. well if you're so insecure about your intelligence, then maybe you should be working on that instead of griping at me?

i hate how i come up with these great comebacks after i'm home and stewing about everything. i still don't think it was that big of a deal, and if it was, then why on earth did she bring it up when she came outside with everyone?

and it's not like she doesn't blab everything i say to her to her mother, which in turn gets back to my mother. i'm considering testing her the next time she cuts my hair just to see how long it takes to get back to my mother. i know she repeats stuff i say because i can honestly recount many stories that my mom has asked me about that i know i never told her.

i don't know why i'm so angry about this. i guess i just feel like i should be mad at something or someone because i have pent up anger. i'm upset with other people too right now, those feelings just haven't made their way to the top to boil over yet. just wait...i'm a time bomb waiting to explode.

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