blah! depressed!

he's been gone 15 hours and i already miss him. is that sad? or like overly sappy or what? i did a good job of keeping myself busy all day so i didn't think much about it after i dropped him at the airport, but when i got off of work and my car was in the parking lot, freezing cold, and he wasn't there....it hit me that i have to go 10 days like this!

he did call me though.....unfortunately i was at work where my phone doesn't always ring. he left me a message saying that it was snowing in corpus. i'm sure it won't be as bad as it was here, but those people see less snow than we do in arkansas, so i'm sure they were freaking out.

he was mad that it snowed here because my christmas present apparently was being shipped to the gym and the gym was closed thursday so he doesn't know if it's here. and he won't tell me what it is.

i slept at his house last night....we didn't even get there until like 4am and he set the alarm to get up at 8, so i guess we didn't sleep that long, but it was like the best 4 hours i've had in a long time. our days off don't coincide anymore, so we never sleep together it seems. i dunno...something about it being winter and freezing cold and being cuddled up in bed together just makes me feel the warm fuzzies. and i guess that will have to hold me over until at least january 3.

i'm spending christmas alone. when i decided to do that earlier this week, it didn't sound that bad. i was actually pretty happy about it b/c i get to watch basketball and eat whatever and drink some stuff....but now that it's actually here.....it sucks. and it's not like i can invite people over since my parking lot is a death trap. i don't even know who i'd invite over if i could. i'm probably just going to curl up and watch some more of my OC dvds and then catch the kobe/shaq game and then go to work. seeeee....work will be the highlight of my christmas day.

and as a closing christmas present to you....some John Mayer lyrics....accurately reflecting my current mood of.....blah....sappy, lonely, missing you terribly.....did i mention sappy?

from St. Patrick's day

here/comes a cold/break out the winter clothes/and find a love to call your own
you/enter you/your cheeks a shade of pink/and the rest of you/a powder blue
who knows/what will be/but i'll make you this guarentee/see

know in november we'll say our goodbye
when it comes to december, it's obvious why
no one wants to be alone at christmas time.
come january we're frozen inside
making new resolutions a hundred times
february won't you be my valentine

and we'll both be safe til st. patrick's day.........

merry christmas everyone.

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christmas message

since i didn't send any christmas cards this year (hell, my tree is still in a box in the closet outside), i thought i'd write a note here and wish everyone a merry christmas and a happy new year. the people that are most important to me, that i don't see on a daily basis, are the ones who read this, so it does work out pretty nicely. i guess this makes me lazy, but i've really been busy this month with the new job, making time for family, and working things out with a certain boyfriend, that i haven't had time to focus on everyone else. i've spent my entire life looking out for everyone else, so i think that i've deserved this time to be selfish.

i realized how small my social circle was getting the other day, when i did all my christmas shopping and bought nothing (you see that? NOTHING) for people not related to me. i used to buy everyone presents. i liked giving presents actually. it's really not possible now without credit cards though. maybe the circle isn't getting smaller, it's just that i'm learning how to manage my money better.....and yeah, i can see you rolling your eyes.

stay tuned for the list of why 2004 was the awesomest in laurie history. that should come out before the end of the year. hehe. and i'll do my yearly list of things i have to accomplish in 2005 too. not that i think any of you care, it's just fun for me so when it's december 2005, i can look back and see how far i've come.

happy holidays everyone! stay safe and warm and enjoy the time you spend with your families....it doesn't last forever!

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