back to normal
i held off for a week to let things die down from before. now i plan on getting back to what i do best, whining and complaining and wallowing in self-appreciation.
why on earth does the freakin OC make me cry like a sissy girl? the season finale just went off and i swear i cried through the last 20 minutes. and now i have to wait until like October to see what the hell Cohen was doing on the sailboat, and how marissa is going to survive at the evil mansion and what's really going to happen with theresa and ryan. UGH! i hate cilffhangers. and why on earth do they do the season finale when i am PMSing like crazy. that's probably why i balled through the ending!
i saw the foo fighters on sunday at beale street music festival. i had such an awesome time. the day was like the most beautiful ever--sunny, no clouds, no humidity, cool breeze. it was almost like being in cali again. mike (who is evolving into the May SFM) and i spent the day just basking in the sun...and then when the sun set, the clouds rolled in and it started raining. not bad at first but by the time the foos started i was getting a bit soggy. i was cold and wet and you'd think i'd be grouchy. i was so happy though. mike kept pulling me close to him to keep warm. and the whole time during the foos he held onto my arm so it was wrapped around him. and the whole 2 mile walk back to the car........we were holding hands and laughing about things. it was almost like i was on a date or something. this girl apologized to me while we were in a crowd b/c she said she "accidently brushed my boyfriend's ass." i didn't tell her he wasn't my bf. i don't know! we pick on each other everyday and as of last week i was only doing it to be kidding around. he and i are like brother and sister or something. but now. now i want some of that. you can't just spend the whole day (and most of the night....literally) teasing me. besides, he's seen me at my worst! everytime we go to memphis we get rained on and for some reason i always end up soaking wet. *sigh* that's got something to do with fate i think. whether it's good fate or bad fate, it remains to be seen.
BT has been joking about hooking us up for over a month now. he says there's too much sexual tension in the room and we just need to get it over with. before, i'd joke along but this week i've realized that i'm not joking anymore. and i told him today that i seriously do want to hook up with mike. BT and mike hang out like all the time and he says that all he (bt) does is talk about how good i would be for mike and he's agreeing. so whatever. nothing's happening yet. and i'm trying to contain myself. blahblah. can't get excited over nothing. don't get hurt this way. today, BT, April, Mike and i all decided we are going to Tunica next weekend. BT wants to hook up with april and he thinks that if you leave me and mike locked in a room together for a while then things will start cookin i guess. i have no money so i have no idea how this is going to work.
see mike and i could go out. we're both broke asses so we could stay home all the time and not worry about everything. hah!
oh yeah....and the foos were awesome. i wish their set was longer, but they played all the good songs (hellO! STACKED ACTORS! YAY!) in the time they did have. and i got to see John for like the first time in forever! he looks so good! i miss him :( i'm glad he's like mega successful in memphis though. doing way better off there than he would if he stayed in little rock.
that's really all that's on my mind right now. i can't stop thinking about mike and what i should do or not do and if i should just wait to see what happens next or if i should start asking questions about what that was all about sunday and why doesn't it happen when we're in little rock?
i just want to hang out somemore. it's funny. if you go back and read some things i wrote in October of last year. i talk about mike and how he's really great and how there's no way i'm going to fall for him b/c he's in love with this other girl. well now that he's gone out with that other girl and broken up with her, he's fair game or something? i didn't want to like him then b/c i didn't know him all that well. and now i know him way too well and unfortunately, i still like him. damnit! i hate this shit!
issues! resolve yourselves!
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