Friday, November 18, 2005

This week has been one of the worst I’ve had in a loong time. Glass half full – it can only get better from here! Haha

I haven’t had shit to do at work the past couple of days at work. I’m writing this at work actually, in Word, which is why things are capitalized.

Anyway – I think I’m over the whole being frustrated with roomie thing. I love her to death! I just get in these waves where I want to be alone, and I can’t. I’ll find a better way to deal, and when we move it will be a lot better.

I talked to mike Wednesday. it was good actually. I had some trouble getting my tires last weekend (it turned into a bigger problem than tires – like brakes!) so I had to call him to find out about when he took my car to Goodyear after he got it stuck in the mud. After I got that info, we caught up a bit on other things. His mom and his son are coming to LR this weekend! I felt so happy for him b/c he’s been trying to get that to happen forever. He says he wants to hang out, and I’d love to see him (?), but I’m not going to call and ask. He’ll have to invite us somewhere. Since I’m leaving it up to him, we all know it won’t happen. No worries!

Wednesday night, russ dropped the bomb that he’s found this great girl that he’s crazy about and he thinks she’s his girlfriend. Yeah. That sucked. I hate being all nice and offering advice and encouragement about a girl to a guy that I want to be with. I don’t think I ever let him on to the fact that I was crushed, but it was a strain to say “I’m so happy for you!” and “that’s so great you are ready to settle down and be monogamous.” I’m glad that someone has made that big of an impression on him, I just wish it could have been me.

I don’t even know why I imagined that he and I would work out. I don’t want a long distance thing ever, and I knew there was no way he’d move up here, even when he said he wanted to. Oh well. It was still a fun Halloween.

Kanye west is in Memphis tomorrow and it’s killing me that I’m not going. I’d go if I had a boyfriend to hold onto and an extra 100 bucks for a ticket and gasoline, but alas, I don’t. he’ll be around for a while, so maybe next time. I saw coldplay is coming back to dallas in February. Maybe I can catch them for my birthday. I need a concert outing. I miss the adrenaline rush I get when the lights go down and the people start screaming. I pledge to not get totally smashed at the next concert I go to. Haha

I had lunch with Nathan and Jarrett yesterday! Great fun! I am so glad that I get to hang out with them as often that I do. I’m glad I get to see most of my friends all the time now. Working during the daytime and not having a boyfriend to obsess over has really worked out for the good.

RIP Eddie Guerrero. You got on my freakin nerves, but I gotta admit, you were pretty awesome. And hell you made Batista break down! You must have made some amazing impressions. Read this hilarious article on the Onion regarding the burial of Eddie by The Undertaker.

Oh and make me one of your myspace friends! http://www.myspace.com/starchica0

Have a great weekend! Go Michigan (pleaseeeeee!!!) beat the Buckeyes!

<3

Tuesday, November 15, 2005

rar

well at least its starting to feel a little like fall now. gotta love grey windy cold afternoons. or maybe that's me...

i dunno. i'm just in a pissy ass mood. i don't want to hang out with anyone and all i really want is to be left alone. i'm allowed to get like this, right? what sucks is i can't be left totally alone, so it's like the ultimate test or something. there is no way i'm going to survive the next 13 months. it's not humanly possible. i can't share my things. i can't share my space. i can't be forced to spend my time or share my life with someone else. i loved being alone after work. i could relax. i didn't have to talk about my day. i didn't feel obligated to spend time with some other person. i didn't have to share tv shows with someone. or listen to them talk about their day while i'm trying to watch something i've been meaning to watch.

i don't really mean any of that. i'm just frustrated and pmsing and these are close quarters. and i never want to hurt anyones feelings, so i just fume inside my head until it gets to that point and if i don't snap here, then someone may be hurt.

at least i get to eat whatever i want for dinner each night. nypd pizza was gooood tonight. and it's something i've been craving for weeks.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

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