finally, rest


i planned to be off today like a month ago and i'm really glad i did that. i was tired when i got home this morning! so i slept for a good 9 hours and i think i could go another 7. i'll save that for tomorrow.

work on both fronts is going pretty well. i came home weds at lunch and slept until 3. i was so tired i couldn't even complete sentences. i'm glad OLES is nice and they don't mind when i skip out early to sleep.

i've only messed up twice in 4 days with my tv job. yay! i have been shoved into doing the newscast on one of my stations. twice a night i have to talk to some guys in Iowa and count them into their show and count out of the breaks. they are pretty funny though, so it's not that bad really. i just get soooo nervous for some reason. i'm still afraid i'm going to make the station crash one day.

this other guy that works most days i'm there has bigger problems though. i think something goes tragically wrong every night. and he gets really mad and starts throwing his pen and his jacket on the floor. it's funny to me, but i'm sure it's a serious deal. the Super usually comes over and bails him out, but not without a few questions on how did this get so fucked up. i have a feeling this guy might be quitting soon. and then i'll have to go over there! eek!

the guy that trained me monday - weds is off thurs and friday and well i missed him last night. i didn't have anyone to talk to! but we were really short staffed last night (me, the guy that screws up and the super were all that was on the floor). we have a staff meeting today so i guess i'll see what goes on with those now.

the original plan for today was to go see a movie but nothing starts until 1 which would cut me close on getting to work on time. maybe tomorrow. lost in translation w/ bill murray is finally showing in LR and i really want to see that. i would like to go get some lunch and have some QT with ryan before he ships out, but dah he's still being a pain about going places. so i don't know. i might just cook something and stay in my pajamas until 3 and then go to work. i'll be dying to get out tomorrow then.

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exhaustion...and it's only tuesday, or is it weds?


man these new work hours are killing me. i'm ok once i get out of bed, but it's hard to get up. and i start yawning around 1700 (5p). i honestly don't know how much i can take working two jobs and 16 hour days.

it has been an interesting two nights though. i've been training with my Monday/Tues supervisor, Mike. he's pretty cool. yesterday we had a lot of fun and today was work. i've only messed up once in my two days though. it's a lot like radio with the playlists and the commercials so i'm not completely lost. it's waaay more involved than radio though. and plus you're running 3 or 4 stations at the same time.

a lot of the other stuff i'm doing i've seen done before. like all that time i spent hanging around the TV studio at school watching larmon work. i do some of those things now! i think he'd be surprised since i was always like "man i hate tv. i don't want to do anything with tv. yuck yuck yuck."

it's just me and the guys so far. there's another new girl that started this week too, and she works my shift, but she has monday and tuesdays off. she's training in the daytime so the supers in primetime aren't overloaded with new people. tomorrow will be different (or is that today?) because Mike isn't the super on Weds, he just works and i think two of the other guys that i've been with all week are off. So i'll have a new super and 2 new people. the other guy that was there today didn't say much. i guess i should be less snobby but he seemed like he was deep in concentration so i didn't want to disturb him.

anyway, i'm still nervous about how this is all going to work out. when you get involved with tape pulling and running syndicated shows, it gets complicated and i like how my job is easy right now.

other news

i went to patrick's dad's funeral today with the gang. it was a very simple, short and sweet ceremony. patrick's brother said that that was how his father was described so everyone thought he would have wanted it that way.

i hate how it takes funerals to get people together though. i don't think the *whole gang* has hung out in a long time, if ever. we all had lunch and goofed around for a while before heading back to work. since ryan is leaving, i'm sure that's the last time that everyone will be together. if not forever, at least for 18 months.

i wrote this letter to ryan that's sort of like a good luck, be careful thing. but i reread it today and it's not what i want it to say. so if you read this ryan, that envelope you found is going to change anyway. not that you remember finding it or anything.

i'd love to say more, but i really need all of my 5 hours of sleep.

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crappy


my blogmonster is being sent to Iraq. thank you george w. as if i needed another reason to hate you. this is the only person i speak to whom i can have real grown up conversations with. and now i'm freakin worried that he's going to die or get hurt or come down with some mysterious chemical weapon disease. thank you again.

i hope he realizes that i'm his friend and i'll do whatever i can do help him out. send packages and newspapers or write letters or bake cookies. whatever! he can even write posts for his blog if he has time and mail them to me and i'd post them on his site for him. blah! i feel so helpless. and if something happens, i won't ever find out about it because i'm just a friend. and i don't know the family. i guess it would be on the news though. that bothers me too.

and my friend's dad died thursday. yet another reason i feel helpless. i never know what to say to people who have lost a loved one. so i usually don't say anything. which makes them think i don't care. i do care! i just rather not say anything than sound really stupid by saying something completely wrong.

just flat out crappy.

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