work

everyone at work has a problem with the Hick lady. she's incompitent, she's ignorant, she's annoying. all she does it gripe and complain about everything. and if you heard her talk, with her slow twang and deep manly voice, you'd probably hate her too.

so i guess you have to picture this. i'm the receptionist. my desk faces the front door and in front of my desk are two couches. the ladies in the office like to plop themselves on my couches and talk. they talk about everything. gripe about hick lady. hygene questions, sexual things, illness, injuries, etc. etc.

well somedays i don't mind it. and somedays i just wish i had my space. i work when i'm at work. sure i'll goof off a few minutes every now and then, but these ladies will sit there on the couch for an hour...two hours...griping and complaing or telling gross stories i don't want to hear. and i keep working! i have things to do! they probably have even more things to do!

i guess i'm jealous or something. my conscious keeps me from slacking off when i'm supposed to be working. and these people go nuts when they haven't finished their work at the end of the day. a part of me would love to scream "well if you didn't waste half your day sitting on the couch then there would be nothing to do!" but i say nothing. and when the stories get to be too much, or i just get where i don't care anymore, i leave *my* desk and go to another room to find some work to do.

that's my gripe for today. i'm sick of being the work horse. especially when i'm making the least amount of money in the whole office.

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one more thought today!


i really would like to suck on John Mayer's bottom lip. it just looks so delicious.


i can't shut up this evening...

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slow news day

it's sad that the conjoined iranian twins died. but that was 24 hrs ago. is this all the news of today? a guy walks into his place of employment in Mississippi, kills 6 coworkers and injures more, and that's not breaking news? it doesn't make sense to me.

i'm watching Joe and i'm sleepy and i guess he's just not interesting to me tonight. he's got some peculiar squinty-eyed appeal to him. he's not ugly...i think it's the fact that he thinks opposite of me that causes me to crush on him. i like differing opinions. i don't like arguements so much, but i guess i'm one of those weirdos that is turned on by disagreement. hehe.

congratulations to the State of South Carolina. First case of West Nile Virus in 2003! your reward is in the mail in the form of a can of Off.

Nikki posted stuff the other day about how her tastes have changed since we were younger. Mine have too, just not in the same way hers have. she's got grown up married woman likes and dislikes. i think i have "i don't wanna grow up" woman likes and dislikes. i used to only wear jeans and t-shirts. now i'm leaning more towards black slacks and khaki pants and pretty girly blouses. i am starting to find some shades of pink nice...so far only in nail polish, lipsticks and flip flops. it may eventually take over though, you never know.

but then, a lot of things haven't changed. i still love watching college football. i still love buying cds. i still love going to the mall and just watching the people. i still have crushes on boys that will never ever like me the same. so yeah...it's an evolution i guess.

ok...back to Joe...the Manager of the Chicago Cubs made a racial comment regarding Latinos and African Americans. the white guy is supporting the fact that the manager wasn't fired, and the black man is saying that he should be fired. is something going on? is the mars aligned with saturn?

ah...there's a full moon this weekend. that explains the irony on tv, and the fact that a lot of people are either super sensitive or super bitchy right now.

not me though! i feel good :)


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still breathing, no puke

well. it's over. i survived. i was so close to just bailing though. when i got there, i sat in the parking lot for like 10 mins trying to talk myself into going in. and then i had to wait for 10 minutes in the lobby.

the interview wasn't bad i guess. there were 5 women there, 4 of which made up the committee that would choose the person who was being hired. they each had questions to ask so it was kind of like you worked your way around the table answering different kinds of questions.

lots of questions like "describe an experience when..." concerning anything from stress, to teamwork, to speaking spanish. i took spanish in high school and in college, but i couldn't speak it fluently. i don't list it on my resume for that reason. i'm sure if i needed to, i would be able to manage by saying "no hablo espanol" over and over again until someone figured me out. i think that's my main weakness to getting the position.

otherwise, i had experience in all the other questions and topics they had. i was very conversational and relaxed as the interview went on. the people that did the interviewing were close in age to me (or so i think...you never know with medical technology these days) so i think they might be fun to work with. lots of women around...i didn't see a single male while i was there. that could be bad. it was a semi-casual atmosphere though. not real dressy, but not like jeans and T's either.

they said there would be a decision made by the end of today, and i could hear from someone as soon as tomorrow. so we'll see i guess.

i wore my new pretty pink skirt even :) and then when i got to work, i ended up moving furniture and supplies around so it all got dirty real fast. blah.

i'm just glad this whole ordeal is over. and i guess i need to go back to sending out resumes!

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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhh

how's that for a mood describing word?

i'm watching the graduate. i know it's like 30+ years old, but i seriously can relate. i have no idea what i'm doing with my life. i'm just not sleeping with my parents friend.

i ate a bunch of ranch salsa dip and i don't feel well right now. should i blame the dip or my nerves?

i'm geninuinely freaking out about this interview. i got home from work today and i had a huge packet on my doorstep from the heifers. i'm supposed to review the materials and be prepared for the interview. there were two magazines and tons of pamphlets. how on earth am i supposed to review those overnight and be fully prepared?

i just wish it was already over with. i have absolutely no confidence that i'll get this job. so yeah...i wish it was friday. payday. scary interview day was over.

someone come cook me breakfast and tell me i look purdy before i go. anything to make me feel marvelous. and not pukey like i do right now.

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utter confusion


i'm so sleepy today. i guess it's because i had a super long day yesterday (up at 0445 and down at 2330). i did get everything accomplished though, so woo.

i went to Memphis with the aunts yesterday. we shopped a lot. i came home with more stuff than clothes, which probably is a good thing. got some sheets and a lamp at the Pottery Barn outlet. very happy about that. now i know how to get there, i'm going to try to go more often. i love PB (and crate & barrel)...it just costs so much for shipping that it's not worth me shopping there. Plus, the nearest store is 2 hrs away (in Memphis) so it's not like i can go all the time. oh yeah, and i don't really make enough money to be decorating my apartment.

on the way home, we were on I-55 and passing the exit to Tunica (Mississippi, the closest casinos to arkansas) and my aunt who was driving made a joke about how that was our last chance to go gamble. See, they all went to Tunica Tuesday so they were saying how awful it would be if they went again that week. well i didn't get to go tues b/c of work so of course i'm saying "lets go! lets go!" and no kidding, my aunt turns around and we go to Tunica. we're not allowed to tell ANYONE we're related to b/c Grandma would get upset and i think everyone would be mad they went twice in a week. i just played (and lost) 20 bucks so it wasn't so bad. it was way crowded though. from now on, i think i'm going to stick to going to the casinos on weekday afternoons instead of saturday nights.

i have a job interview on Tuesday with Heifer International. it's a non-profit organization that helps poor countries around the world by providing them with farm animals. sounds hick, doesn't it? it's an admin 2 position, that pays about 10k more a year than i make now. i sure could use the money. i'm really nervous about the interview though. it's a "panel interview" and everyone on the panel asks questions. the HR person that called said they like to demonstrate the team environment that Heifer uses. i just think that's cruel and unusual punishment. a part of me just wants to call them tomorrow and bail. i don't think i'll get the job b/c i don't speak Spanish as well as i should. but another part of me says i should go, just so i can say i endured a panel interview and even if i bomb, it's the experience that counts. out of the six applications and resumes i sent out last week, this is the only call back i got. i'd feel awful if i didn't go to the interview.

i get super nervous before interviews. i try to be myself but i just tense up. i don't think i'm a good interviewee. i never know the answers to the questions because my mind is going 100 miles per minute thinking about other things like do i look like i would fit in here and how would i get along with this person. everything but, answer the question. and i don't know answers to questions like "what are your weaknesses in your current position?" i don't have any weaknesses, seriously! my job is like kindergarten level and i'm a college graduate. how do you explain that to someone without sounding cocky? you can't!

so yeah. i don't know what i'm going to do. i bought a pretty skirt (i can hear jaws dropping across the city) that i want to wear and a slutty white top to put with it. if i'm going to bomb this interview like the rest of them, i'm going to do it in style.

next weekend i'm going to see dave matthews! yay!

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